I have been experiencing some issues recently, not knowing where to turn or who to go to. I have been feeling like I am going to lose everyone that I love my boyfriend, my career everything that is great and amazing to me. The truth is I have been told that I am self-destructive and I do not see this for myself. I have been told this a lot of times that I am self-destructive, and I do not see it. Theres times when I am so depressed that I do not feel like getting out of bed, I don't want to do anything and its like what am I doing. Why am I doing this? I am over here making fake profiles because someone blocked me, spoofing calls pretending to be someone else that I am not. We live in a world where we look for validation from other people on social media, so I deleted ALL OF MY SOCIAL MEDIA APPS from my phone, changed my number, and told myself the only validation that I need is from my self and from god. I don't need validation from anyone else about what I am doing or who I am dating or anything like this. Whether or not this person is telling the truth or not I am not looking for this at all. God will show the truth one way or another, and I believe since doing this it has made me pay attention to things that I never paid attention to before. I don't know how to control my emotions and I get over emotional and when I do it causes me to do things that I don't mean to do and lose people that I don't want to lose. Being without social media and other things and separating myself from things allows me to work on myself mentally and physically and being ready for anything that comes towards me. I am a lot calmer and peaceful at mind so I decided to do a blog series 30 days with out social media post to talk about my experiences and growth as a person. This is a journey that I really want to take and get ready for.









